Happy New Year everyone. ❤
It’s wonderful to be back blogging. I am so grateful to be a part of this community. When I was on my break, I really missed connecting, and commenting on each other’s posts. I so enjoy being with each and every one of you!!
Well, it’s been quite a year. I’ve….
Left a job that was no longer working for me to share my gifts with forgiveness as a full-time professional coach.
Stopped running long-distance to balance my blood sugar, get my cholesterol in better shape (slowing down actually helps this, who knew? ), and focus on balance in my life, personally and in my relationships.
And I moved to Santa Monica into my WONDERFUL townhouse.
What you may not know is that I also left a relationship that I’ve been in for 3 years. For the last year, I’ve been cycling back and forth on whether to give it a go, and I got to a place where it’s not ok inside of me to stay in something that doesn’t support me in my life. Wow, it’s uncomfortable even to say this.
In the time we’ve been split up, I have realized how much I’ve blocked myself from true intimacy with ME. I looked to him for loving, and I was upset when he didn’t do it the way I wanted. I wanted him to tell me that everything was ok, that I was safe and wouldn’t be hurt, and that is just not possible with another human being! When I realized he wasn’t a good match, I didn’t know how much stuff I had to work in my own inner life, and now I do.
The part that really gets me is that I’m still clear he’s not a good fit for me. A part of me aches to go back. And, it’s a habitual response for me. I think – no, I KNOW – there’s more for me to reveal about how I am in relationship, where I get stuck, and what’s next to forgive.
Right now, I am on Day 3 of a 21 day forgiveness plan. It’s the key action steps of a group I am offering starting on Jan. 25th. The group starts with ME. I am currently doing a deep dive into acceptance––what if I fully accept myself, the relationship, and the patterns I notice in my communications with people? Will the door truly open, as Rumi says?
I’m ready, and willing. I’m not sure how I can fully let go of looking to David for love, and to conceive of a possible new relationship––and I claim that in love all things are possible. To me, the best bridge to love is forgiveness. Period.
I invite you, my beautiful blogging friends, if you have an area of your life where you are saying “I want something different”, if you are standing in a new way of being for yourself for 2020, join us in 21 Days of Forgiveness. We’ll have a lot of fun, and keep it simple! The group starts with a Zoom call followed by a simple step to practice Self-forgiveness each day. We’ll wrap up and reconnect at the end––on Feb 15, a great day to celebrate your relationship with you.
Slowing down with forgiveness––taking it ONE step at a time––is such a powerful way to create more of the experience you want in your life, as you may already know!
Are you interested in finding out more? Comment below and I’ll contact you!
And, whether or not you participate, comment ANYWAY and let me know how you are. I missed you and love you all.
Here is my one affirmation for the start of the New Year:
I am Debbie Roth, and I forgive!
Happy Forgiving Fridays to all.
ps – this post is my contribution to Frank’s weekly photo challenge, Retrospective. Frank, your blog is so great! Thanks for keeping the challenge in 2020. 🙂