Today’s forgiving journal: Taking a retreat to my heart

Today’s forgiving journal is about taking a retreat to my heart.

I’m about to go into a spiritual retreat.  It’s at a gorgeous facility in northern California called Asilomar.  There are deer, woods, and the ocean all within close proximity.  Many of my dearest friends are also here, as we prepare to turn off our phones and emails for the week.

When I close my eyes and tune inside, I get that this is a time for me to go deep inside, steep in my goodness, and allow my heart to guide me on what’s next for me.

I’m also aware of an old pattern of self-doubt and of over-complicating things. Boy, did it come front and center today.  Time to love it and let it go.

1 – Self-forgiveness: I forgive myself for judging myself for being so hard on myself. I forgive myself for judging myself for second guessing so much of what I do. I forgive myself for overcomplicating things.

2 – Letting go: I let these patterns go into the Light. They are keeping me from letting my Light shine as fully as possible, and actually I’d also like to let go that I need to be any particular way to please anyone. Whew.

3 – Gratitude: I am grateful for doing my best to let these patterns go.  I am grateful for sticking with myself when I don’t really “feel” the forgiveness.  I am doing the best I can, and it all starts with taking my step with faith.  So here I am doing it.

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I am trusting that this forgiving blog is exactly what I need to prepare myself for my participation and for going inside the way I yearn to do.

I had a friend give me a Rumi quote that at the time, seemed perfect for today with my “signing off for a week”.

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While I don’t know that I experience fully the gratitude that Rumi speaks, I am holding steady that my heart sings a song of “YES”!

I love you. Have a wonderful week.

Love,

Debbie

ps – here’s more on gratitude and forgiveness when you just aren’t feeling it

 


27 thoughts on “Today’s forgiving journal: Taking a retreat to my heart

    1. Yes! That’s right, Andrea. 🙂 Thanks for the reminder.
      Our spiritual community goes to this retreat center each year, first with a focus of “Living in Grace” and now with “Passage into Spirit”. Both are full of love and so from the heart. What a blessing of joy 🙂
      Lots of love to you — Debbie

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    1. Oh Rhonda, thank you! Sending you so much loving, my friend. ps – if you haven’t been to Asilomar, I highly recommend it. It’s a beautiful, sacred space in the middle of nature that is truly full of peace.

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    1. Thank you! What a beautiful act of self-care to write in a gratitude journal. Sending many smiles and hugs to you and to the journal too. 🙂 Many blessings and glad that you are here, very grateful for you. Debbie

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    1. Yes, you said it Nikki! Rumi touches my heart. ❤
      The retreat was magnificent. There was so much time to be quiet, look inside my heart, and just connect with myself. And the other people at the retreat feel like family! Thanks for asking – so glad you are here.
      Love, Debbie

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