Today’s forgiving journal is about taking a retreat to my heart.
I’m about to go into a spiritual retreat. It’s at a gorgeous facility in northern California called Asilomar. There are deer, woods, and the ocean all within close proximity. Many of my dearest friends are also here, as we prepare to turn off our phones and emails for the week.
When I close my eyes and tune inside, I get that this is a time for me to go deep inside, steep in my goodness, and allow my heart to guide me on what’s next for me.
I’m also aware of an old pattern of self-doubt and of over-complicating things. Boy, did it come front and center today. Time to love it and let it go.
1 – Self-forgiveness: I forgive myself for judging myself for being so hard on myself. I forgive myself for judging myself for second guessing so much of what I do. I forgive myself for overcomplicating things.
2 – Letting go: I let these patterns go into the Light. They are keeping me from letting my Light shine as fully as possible, and actually I’d also like to let go that I need to be any particular way to please anyone. Whew.
3 – Gratitude: I am grateful for doing my best to let these patterns go. I am grateful for sticking with myself when I don’t really “feel” the forgiveness. I am doing the best I can, and it all starts with taking my step with faith. So here I am doing it.
I am trusting that this forgiving blog is exactly what I need to prepare myself for my participation and for going inside the way I yearn to do.
I had a friend give me a Rumi quote that at the time, seemed perfect for today with my “signing off for a week”.
While I don’t know that I experience fully the gratitude that Rumi speaks, I am holding steady that my heart sings a song of “YES”!
I love you. Have a wonderful week.
ps – here’s more on gratitude and forgiveness when you just aren’t feeling it