Today’s forgiving journal is about grieving loss.
It’s almost like saying the same thing twice, isn’t it? “Grieving loss” …. and yet that’s what the experience feels like inside of me.
The day started with me bursting over tears when I got reminded of someone that I am grieving. I didn’t even realize that tears were still present for me in regards to them! For the rest of the morning and into the afternoon, I had trouble concentrating and just did my very best to take one step in front of the other.
I eventually came out of it, and I’m still pretty raw. What’s present now is to just really give myself a whole lot of caring. It’s completely ok that I’m feeling these things. I am also remembering that I recently asked for healing and completion in regards to some old grief — so what a blessing that I am safe inside of myself to feel this hurt.
OK it’s time for my forgiving process:
1 – Self-forgiveness: I forgive myself for judging myself for not wanting to miss this person. I forgive myself for judging myself for being so uncomfortable with grief and crying.
2 – Letting go: I am ok with myself exactly as I am, with exactly what I’m experiencing, right here and right now. And best I can, I let it all go into the loving presence that helps me.
3 – Gratitude: I am grateful for continuing to show up for myself. I am grateful for the opportunity to heal and complete past griefs. I am grateful for the grouchiness I feel regarding loss. I love myself!
What’s present right now is to say thank you. Thank you for all the months of participating with me in this forgiving journal. It is a circle of kindness that is one of the greatest blessings of my life currently.
I love you.