Today’s forgiving journal is about love love love love.
I chose four “loves”, because four is my favorite number. And boy, the little girl inside of me (the one who loves 4!) needs an extra dose of loving today. So I gave it to her by…
*Walking in nature
*Going to a ministers’ meeting (I’m a Minister in an alternative spiritual org called MSIA)
*Doing a kind deed for a woman on the street
*Having a bagel when I was hungry
I really got this weekend, that I had gotten out of balance inside of myself. I haven’t been taking care of myself very well, and it feels horrible. Why I started doing self-forgiveness had a lot to do with being self-punishing and just plain being mean to myself. One great thing about my teensy relapse is that I realize how crappy it feels to get back into this self-criticalness.
So here I am, doing my forgiving process again:
1 – Self-forgiveness: I forgive myself for judging myself for being so critical of myself and even for hating some aspects of myself. I forgive myself for judging myself as too unworthy to receive love. I forgive myself for judging myself for not taking care of myself.
2 – Letting Go: I let go of these old patterns of behavior into the Light. Humor helps. Here’s a joke: “What do you call cheese that isn’t yours? Answer: Nacho Cheese!” (OK I’ve used this one before, it’s one of the only jokes I know).
3 – Gratitude: I am grateful for the safe haven of my forgiving process. I am grateful for choosing once again in this moment to take care of myself. I am grateful for the ability to choose.
Today is a day I said, That’s enough. I “love love love love” myself, and I’m lining up my actions with loving all parts of me. And you know what? Where I am with all this is just fine. I really get that.
I love you.