Today’s forgiving blog is about Light within darkness.
When I was doing a Masters program in Spiritual Science, we had a second year project. I don’t remember the focus of the project exactly, other than it had to do with being aware of myself as a Soul. I ended up doing these paintings of my qualities that I became more aware of because of the program.
One of these qualities was “grace”. I painted it as a beautiful purple Light that came out of this crappy looking brown bit…. all of which was in my heart. What I got from that is that I open to the grace within me by seeing, acknowledging, and loving the parts inside of me that feel really dark.
Then just yesterday, I received a gift from a friend. She is good at telling people what flower best represents them. The one she chose for me is a white flower coming out of the frozen snow. I was so touched that I almost started crying. It reminded me of that painting I did so many years ago. Today, I get that the Light of who I am is within the darkness, that I am NEVER EVER alone, and that the truth – the beauty – of who I am will always bloom, no matter what the situations I am faced with (inner and outer). Who I am is within the dark parts and it is ever so more than them.
It’s definitely time for my forgiving process.
1 – Self-forgiveness: I forgive myself for judging myself for forgetting that the Light is always within me, even in the darkest spots. I forgive myself for judging myself for believing that I am alone and forsaken. I forgive myself for judging the situations in my life as anything less than blessings to show me that I can love myself completely.
2 – Letting go: I let all of this go into the Light….into grace…into the loving of Spirit. I claim that I am love and that this is always the case.
3 – Gratitude: I am grateful for my friend who sent me this gorgeous photo. I am grateful for doing the best I can to share my process of forgiveness. I am grateful for breathing in and out, and relaxing again.
I’d like to end with a gorgeous Mother Teresa quote, “Let no one ever come to you without leaving happier.” To me, this is a big part of who I am and why the flower appeals to me, because I have an intention to brighten up the world wherever I go – and that all of this starts inside of me, by loving me. I love myself a lot.
I love you.