Today’s forgiving blog is about shifting my attitude.
I had a hard day today. It started out well enough, had coffee with two lovely friends…did some fulfilling work….picked up my bib for a race I’m running tomorrow. Then, about halfway through the day, I just went downhill.
I got really sad. And angry. And grieving losses that I’m tired of grieving.
Most of all, I just didn’t want to cooperate anymore. I didn’t want to be here, participating in life, feeling things like grief and loss and uncertainty about where I am and what’s happening or going to happen.
This feeling is SO uncomfortable inside of me. It’s like I want to get out of my own skin and I can’t. Luckily, I was smart enough to ask for help from a good friend. We talked about what our higher selves would say to us.
I got some good information. A big piece of what I learned is that it’s ok – truly ok – to not want to let go. This permission that I granted to myself made me cry, boy did it feel good just to let it all out.
What the blessing is for me in all of this is how valuable it is to gain altitude, because what I experience is a shift in attitude. Everything becomes acceptable inside of me, or at least most things do and that’s really great.
I forgive myself for judging myself for wanting to get away from myself today. I put this into my prayers so that I may love myself better from this point onward.
I’ll end today with a gorgeous Martin Luther King, Jr. quote:
“Forgiveness is not an occasional act, it is a constant attitude.” –Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.
May we all forgive and forget, gain altitude and attitude, and love ourselves and others more fully.
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