Today’s forgiveness blog is on letting go.
I realized today just how much I want to hold onto things, situations, people, emotions, etc. I wonder why? Is it that I’m scared how I will feel when I don’t have something I’m comfortable with/used to/wanting? I do know that I get really sad when something or someone leaves my life that I’m attached to. It feels like a loss that is too big for me to handle.
Sigh. This feels really young, I’m so in touch with a sad little girl who aches for some thing she lost that she loved deeply. And that she never really let go again until recently.
Tomorrow is my birthday. I ask for a gift from God to be ok with loss and to know that it’s ok to love fully, deeply, intimately. I am learning a lot about this, and right now that is enough.
One thing that I do know is that I love my spiritual teachers, John-Roger and John Morton. I am courageous in how I let go and give my heart to them. I couldn’t do it with them if I’m not also doing it with me. That is very cool. I forgive myself for judging all the ways and times that I don’t let go, that I don’t love, that I withdraw or turn away from myself and from God.
Thank you everyone for reading and participating with this blog. I love you! Any comments are greatly blessed and welcome.