I wasn’t planning on writing a post this morning. Since I’m doing Money Mondays every week, I decided to move this Forgiving Fridays series to once per month. And, I woke up with this blog, and so I share it with you in great love.
Also below are contributions for #ForgivingFridays last week (and a few from last year.) Feel free to contribute your own experience, your stories, on forgiveness and letting go. Simply tag this post & include #ForgivingFridays in your tags.
I sometimes miss my mom so much. She was unconditionally loving and accepting, and she would always call me for my birthday.
When she was murdered, I was in shock. I remember my husband at the time Bruce telling me, and my body got really cold. He hugged me, and I said to myself, “This didn’t happen really.”
A part of me has stayed in that disbelief for over 10 years. I got clear to do this work of forgiveness before she died, and I went with it afterward with gusto! I’m so glad I did that, it allowed me to find the gift in her murder to help other people access the grace of forgiveness, i.e., I love myself and everyone else no matter what.
And now, I take a pause — a pause to let the grace flow over me, washing away all the trauma, all the hurt, and all the grief. Rumi said that in the grief is the joy. I forgive myself for judging myself for feeling scared to stop and allow the grief and be present in that.
I forgive myself for judging God for taking away my Mom. And, I forgive myself for judging myself as unwilling to love since that time.
The truth is, this experience has opened me to love. It’s opened me to Intimacy. I have a spiritual teacher J-R who said, “Into Me You See” is what intimacy is. I’m so happy that she gave herself to God and gave me a sacred space to give myself to Spirit here on earth.
And as a part of that, on days like this, when I’m sad about my mom, I put a blanket around me and give myself a hug – and remind myself of the truth of forgiveness.
Thank you for being here. Be good and gentle to yourself today.
#FORGIVINGFRIDAYS POSTS FOR THE LAST TWO WEEKS:
Etta of Simply Etta D. contributed a wonderful invitation to open to the possibilities of 2019 and to use acceptance as a key to change. Go, Etta! (and here’s another one I love, where Etta reminds us that all we need to do is commit to ourselves just for today.)
DeB of Roaming Urban Gypsy contributed a beautiful sharing of her experience with letting go of the past and sharing her gifts as an artist. And a great photo of her!!
Frank of Poetry, Short Prose and Walking gave us a beautiful compilation of creativity to illustrate forgiveness – including a story of an old couple in unconditional love – and gorgeous photo to accept what is!
Pragalbha of Infinite Living shared her own quote image on how choices are full of wisdom when we work with forgiveness. Thank you Pragalbha – beautiful!
Revived Writer wrote a courageous poem on being with herself even when she’s struggling. This is a huge key to accept what is – including ourselves exactly as we are!
Miriam of Out An’ About wrote a heartwarming post on anticipating the adventure of life and the year ahead. She invites us to know that something wonderful is waiting for us. Wow!
Patty of Whimziville.com shared a creative project with a lighthouse that demonstrates how we can hold the Light in the darkness. She shares such keys for peace – thank you!