Today’s forgiving journal is how to forgive when I don’t know else what to do.
I did a “Forgiving Fours” video the other day on steps to forgiveness. I had to pause on step two, because I was just having a hard time. There has been so much change in my life, and I was trying to keep it all together in this video when that is not where it was.
So I just stopped. And said how I was having a rough time. That was the first time I have ever done that.
Well, that’s not really true. There are other times in my life where I just didn’t know what to do. One was when I was at a spiritual growth seminar and was having a hard time. I stopped a process that was going on to say that. I didn’t know what else to do, except to stop and be really honest.
I am done on being hard on myself. I am done on “the doing”. I don’t know what to do to let this pattern go, and that is ok. I know that I can stop and say no more.
Time for forgiving:
1 – Self-forgiveness: I forgive myself for judging myself for doing not being. I forgive myself for judging myself for being really hard on myself. I forgive myself for judging others who say I’m being not doing as fake and pretending to be spiritual.
2 – Letting Go: I let go of these judgments into the Light and I step free. Into what? We shall see.
3 – Gratitude: I am so grateful for doing things differently. I am grateful for my courage, period.
I did a painting called “Blessings of Oneness”, and I kept it on my trip across the country.
I didn’t know consciously why I painted what I did, or what the experience of Oneness is. What I do know is that I’m stopping to find out.
I love you.
ps – this post is my response to Frank’s photo challenge, flow. Frank, I am learning to go with the flow of oneness. Thank you so much.
Here’s the video I did where I stopped ❤