Today’s forgiving journal is about simplifying my life.
I had a big day today. Packed up a lot of stuff, did a yard sale, and let a lot of material possessions go. On the one hand, there’s a lot of freedom in this for me. At certain times today, my heart felt so open and light, and I smiled.
That is what I hear a lot about simplifying – the gifts, the freedom, the energy to do what’s next.
And I also feel (maybe not right at the same moment) sad, and stuck, and wanting to keep the items I gave away. I just want to sit down and either cry or watch T.V. In this feeling is both grief for letting go of what I liked and also self-doubt that I am doing the “right” thing by moving.
I am present to how much I have grown to allow such a mish-mash of experiences be ok inside of me.
Time for forgiving:
1 – Self-forgiveness: I forgive myself for judging myself for feeling so sad and so self-doubting and so full of mish mash. I forgive myself for judging those possessions as beauty I will never get back.
2 – Letting go: I let all of this go into the Light, and I ask for help with this because it feels a little big right now.
3 – Gratitude: Thank you, Debbie! I let go of some things. I moved forward with the moving process big time today. Most importantly, I am checking in with myself, and loving myself and others a lot.
I recently created Ideal Scenes for four areas of my life. I put them on my wall under a painting called “Love in Different Colors” (now packed), so that I could keep what’s important in the forefront of my attention each day as I move.
Simplifying gave me a lot of lessons today. Probably the biggest ones are to Just keep moving, allow what needs to come up, release what I can, and trust the wisdom of my heart.
I love you.
ps – this is my contribution for Frank’s photo challenge for the week, simplify. Thanks, Frank – this was a good one.