Today’s forgiving journal is about watching love.
Last night, I sat in on a residents’ meeting at a beautiful seminary in Los Angeles. What I witnessed is people really caring about each other. It went in like it hadn’t before, or maybe I’m just more open to the love.
Because I wasn’t a resident, most of what I did during this meeting is just observe and send everyone Light and caring. It was powerful to be quiet, to watch, and to observe what happened (both inside of me and in the meeting).
The key thing that I’m aware of is how much I go to my own agenda. As I watched, I wanted to tell them how to do things, and then I caught myself. And what came out of the group was (a) people giving to one another; (b) people putting their arms around each other; and (c) people laughing and supporting each other. It made me yearn for a greater experience of that closeness.
I was about to do forgiveness on my inability to be close and caring, and that is just not true. I have – and am building – a strong capacity to be in intimate relationship.
What I really want to forgive is that I don’t feel like I deserve love. Truly, deep down, there it is. So:
I forgive myself for judging myself as unworthy of love. I let this go into the Light so that I may step free, and I smile. I am grateful to practice joy, to scatter joy and to watch joy.
This whole “watching” thing – without needing to “do” anything – is a powerful tool to bring forward my next level of forgiveness. For this, I am full of thankfulness.
I love you.
For more on watching for forgiviness: ❤