Today’s forgiving journal: Coming Present to my Heart

Today’s forgiving journal is about coming present to my heart.

I had a conversation with a dear friend today. We spoke about making a change to an event we’re collaborating on. There was resistance within me on whether to change or stay the same.

The truth is, nothing stays the same. We are constantly in the process of updating … our beliefs, our outer environment, and most importantly, our inner awareness and attunement. I am feeling so sad about, well, about not having a way to control it all.

I got my hair cut today. For the first time in 46 years (or close to it), I have really short bangs. I thought my forehead was too big for bangs this high up. And then I really looked – it was like I was seeing myself through new eyes.

Time for forgiving:

1 – I forgive myself for judging myself for seeing myself and what’s around me through old filters. I forgive myself for judging myself for not wanting to change, period.
2 – I feel like I don’t have the words for forgiving, and I let this go into love. I let go of old frameworks that no longer serve me, and I move into what my heart is calling me to now.
3 – I am so grateful to my friend for our talk today. I am grateful for the willingness I have to tune into my heart. I am grateful for the person who cut my hair and showed me what’s present now.

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The thing is, when I look at myself, I see a woman who looks good in short hair (including bangs!).

When my friend and I wrapped up, we agreed to look to our hearts for what change, if any, is aligned with the greatest good. Best I know, it is in my heart that I find what is true, what I can count on.

I am still feeling really sad. God, I thought I knew more about what is real. This is a step up, and with each step, I love & ‪#‎Iforgive.

I love you.

Love,
Debbie

And for more on coming present to your heart ❤


25 thoughts on “Today’s forgiving journal: Coming Present to my Heart

  1. Oh Deb…I hope the sadness would go away…let me give you a hug… I feel you…sometimes, it’s difficult to let go and accept change- but change is constant and inevitable. I hope you’ll find healing over time. And if it would count, you look fab and younger with your short bangs! 🙂

    On Fri, Aug 19, 2016 at 4:31 AM, ForgivingConnects wrote:

    > forgivingjournal posted: “Today’s forgiving journal is about coming > present to my heart. I had a conversation with a dear friend today. We > spoke about making a change to an event we’re collaborating on. There was > resistance within me on whether to change or stay the same. The tr” >

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  2. First of all Debbie– Cute hair cut!!! As I’m getting older I wast to open to change– not be a rigid little old lady– but on some things I remain firm– my faith, by commitment to family… it’s a balance. Thanks for another thought provoking post. So glad you have the best kind of friends who really know how to talk about important things… take care. xo

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  3. Oh Debbie, your video was so touching and honest, I hope the sadness has gone because YOU LOOK GORGEOUS! I admire you so much!! Thank you for being you, it’s such a pleasure to be surrounded by people like you! I hug you and hope you have a wonderful weekend ❤️

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  4. I think you look lovely. The video is so touching Debbie. (I followed on YouTube by the way) So authentic. It’s the tender passion you have in your soul that shines out and anyone watching can just tell that you are digging deep down and sharing love and kindness and forgiveness with all you come in contact with.
    Hugs to you Debbie. ❤

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