Today’s forgiving journal is about the courage to forgive.
I did a forgiveness video today with simple tips to forgive when we REALLY don’t want to forgive.
That made me think, What is it that I don’t want to forgive? If I’m doing this forgiving work … if I’m really walking my talk … then I need to look at the exact thing that I am resisting. (And a dear mentor once said, “Pain x resistance = suffering)
What I don’t want to forgive is this feeling that I’ve been abandoned. I could go into the story of it, and I don’t really see it as necessary. I’m going to pause to see what is necessary to share. OK, what’s necessary to share is that I so want someone to take care of me. It feels like my heart hurts, and I have such a frowny look on my face, of a very deep hurt.
When it comes right down to it, I feel alone sometimes. God that hurts.
I’m going to do the simple tips from my video as my forgiving process for today:
1 – Get it out: UCH I DO NOT WANT TO BE ABANDONED!! Don’t leave me alone. 😦
2 – Pause and put my hand on my heart: Done
3 – Take 3 deep breaths: Done!
4 – Say “I love and accept myself exactly as I am”: I love and accept myself exactly as I am.
What I’m aware of right now is a smile on my face, more relaxed shoulders, and loving softness in my eyes. Also a gratitude that I did that video this morning, because it really helped me with this right now.
I love you!