Today’s forgiving journal is about giving myself some space.
I’ve lived a lot of my life on a very tight rope. Like, it’s not ok to make mistakes, it’s not ok to take a misstep, and it’s certainly not acceptable to allow anyone else to see any of this. And this has brought me into a lot of shame, as I tried to cover up my humanness with perfectionism.
What is true is that I am a Soul having a human experience. And in this human experience, I’m going to have foibles. I’m going to do things less than perfectly. I’m going to communicate in ways that I’m not proud of. And ALL of this is ok, because it’s a part of my expression, my growing creative Debbie. I’m learning who I am, what works and what doesn’t work for me. And I can forgive.
It’s time for my forgiving process.
1 – Self-forgiveness: I forgive myself for judging myself for not liking the dirtiness of life. I forgive myself for judging myself for hating people seeing me as less than perfect. I forgive myself for judging myself for incessantly wanting to correct myself.
2 – Letting go: I am smiling into the abyss. What does that mean? I’m not even sure exactly, except that it is making me really happy right now! And happy is a key for me to let go – I let all this judgment go into the Light for the highest good.
3 – Gratitude: I am grateful for learning more about me. I am grateful for how willing I am to give it a go with myself. I am grateful for writing this amazing journal.
One thing I am aware of is that I am more comfortable in knowing that I am committed to learning about me, taking care of me, and loving me every step of the way. And I am realizing that this is me giving myself some space. This is a huge relief.
I love you.