Today’s forgiving journal is about being real.
I’m aware that I can speak in platitudes, and also that I can say things without thinking or checking in to see what is really going on inside of me. I’m also aware that I’m pretty hard on myself about this, and that I have a deep prayer to be really present inside of me — I really want to know what is going on for me, and what I think and feel and want and don’t want, what my dreams are, and etcetera!
This is such a good feeling, to know that I want me. And it starts with being real, by checking in with myself to (a) see what’s going on, how I’m doing, etc., (b) make sure I’m saying what I mean and meaning what I say, and (c) tune inside whether I need anything right now. (I’m sure there’s more and that’s enough for now.)
OK, this is a lot for me. So it’s time for my forgiving process:
1 – Self-forgiveness: I forgive myself for judging myself for not meaning what I say sometimes. I forgive myself for judging myself as a fake and a phony. I forgive myself for judging myself as shameful for admitting this.
2 – Letting Go: I ask for the help of God as my partner to forgive, to let go of these judgments, and any associated feelings or beliefs about myself or others!! (You may not believe in God, which is so fine! Substitute a word that works for you, like love….nature….Spirit….or the heart)
3 – Gratitude: I am grateful for being more present in who I am at this moment. I am grateful for admitting to myself what is truly going on for me. I am grateful to have this family of forgiving friends and supporters. Yes!!!
I realize that there’s one more thing for me to do right now, and that is to say: I love myself. I really, truly love myself.
I hope that everyone has a beautiful day, blessed with the inspiration of your heart. I love you.