Today’s forgiving journal: Really seeing me

Today’s forgiving journal is about really seeing me.

I had a forgiving circle with a good friend today.  We explored a question something like, What is the deepest level of Self-forgiving I can do right now?  I really went for it, and what I realized is this: the very thing that I worried about someone doing to me (like hurting me….not loving me), I was the one doing it to the people I care about!!!

I had been telling a story all these years, because I didn’t really want to look at the fact that I had trouble really being present with those I love deeply.  It felt so good to see this, to finally finally look at what was going on inside of me with this pattern.  It was like I was seeing a part of me for the first time.

I’m still a little raw, so I’m going to do my forgiving process.  First though, here is a quote from my spiritual teacher John-Roger to guide my way:

“It takes great courage to see the face of God because you first have to look at your own.” –John-Roger

Here we go:

1 – Self-forgiveness: I forgive myself for judging myself for all the times I didn’t let someone care about me.  I forgive myself for judging myself for feeling ashamed at how I’ve acted in relationship.  I forgive myself for judging myself for not wanting to accept this face of me, not wanting to see it even.

2 – Letting go:  I put all this judging into the Light hopper and give it over for the very highest good!  🙂

3 – Gratitude: I am grateful that I CAN look at my own face and be OK.  I am grateful for the relationships where I feel really accepted and loved for who I am.  I am grateful for being safe inside of me.

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Whew, what a day.  I give myself two huge thumbs up for having the courage to look inside and see me.

Really seeing me courage Osho May 26 2016

I love you.

Love, Debbie

#Iforgive


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