Today’s forgiving blog is about receiving love….and a laugh.
I had a hard day today.
Just full of grief.
Or it felt that way anyway.
Funny, because today I went to my ministers’ meeting. (I’m a minister in an alternative spiritual group called the Movement of Spiritual Inner Awareness) The presence of love is so high at these meetings, so I would think at first that I’d be feeling really good. I guess though that really what happened is that I felt safe enough, loved enough, and protected enough just to let the hurt I’ve been feeling for a while come up to be healed.
Or it could be that this is just my next level of letting go. Can you tell I’m trying to figure it out?
I’m grateful for the presence of loving that I experience at these meetings. I am grateful that I went. I am showing up for myself, and I am thankful for that.
One of the things I said today is that I am aware I’m not in full cooperation with regards to the circumstances of my life; however I am willing to do what it takes to learn, to grow, and to love.
That is a blessing.
You know, one of the things I love about myself is that I like finding the humor in things. So I’ll end with a funny story. I was on my way to the minister’s meeting, and I stopped for a (very good!) cup of coffee. To my credit, this coffee is only available on the weekends via a coffee truck.
The iffy thing about me stopping for this Brooklyn delicacy is that I was pushing it regarding getting to the meeting on time. Boy, did I sprint through the subway system in NY to get there. I so did my best to enjoy the coffee as I was racing to get to where I needed to go. I run through the door to the home where the meeting was taking place, and everyone looked at me with smiles…with amusement…and/or with just a welcome. It was 11:52am, and the meeting started at noon.
As I stood panting, I told the story to a dear friend next to me, and I said at the end, “Boy, it was a good cup of coffee though!” Tickled my funny bone. We gotta laugh at ourselves right?
I love you all…..may blessings enfold you with so much caring!