Have you ever had one of those days where you feel like you’re running around in your mind?
Well, I am, and I’m certainly not in any mood for forgiveness.
My head hurts thinking the same thing over and over again, “I should have said this differently”, “They aren’t going to love me anymore”, “Why didn’t I pick up the phone when he called?” etc ad infinitum.
I think the biggest thing I’m aware of is how much this mind chatter affects my body and my emotions. My stomach feels like it’s in one big knot, my brows are furled, and mostly, I just feel like a little kid without a best friend.
What forgiveness skill can I use right now? Let’s try acceptance.
I accept myself as I am. I accept the fact that I didn’t do everything today the way I wanted to. I accept how much I wanted to be loved by others today. I accept that I don’t really feel worthy of … well, much of anything right now.
Sometimes, forgiveness is simply a matter of saying, Where I am is exactly just fine. And that’s that.
Signing off for today.