This is my contribution to Frank’s Weekly Photo Challenge, Healthy. How did you know the perfect topic to pick? Boy, does this help me to forgive the nitty gritty of day-to-day life! : )
Today’s forgiving journal is about loving myself healthier!
When I was a little girl, I had struggles with my self-worth. I was chubby and a little insecure, and I didn’t like how I looked. As I grew up, this insecurity stayed, and I had a bout with anorexia and bulimia multiple times in my life.
The blessing of all of this is that I truly got to stand up and choose differently to LOVE MYSELF and to SEE THE GOOD IN MYSELF. It is a work in progress, still.
I realized today that I fell back into an old pattern of restricting food, and I’m too thin for my own health. What a good thing for me to see, and I am so grateful (did I say this already) for the willingness that I have to be vigilant about my self-care, and to forgive myself when I forget who I am and don’t treat myself with caring.
I forgive myself for judging myself for my insecurity both as a kid and now. I am aware of a limiting belief that I need to be different than who I am. So I forgive myself for judging myself for buying into the belief that I am not ok as I am. The truth is: I am a Beloved Child of God, and I KNOW IT more and more every day!
Today, for the first time in a while, I got a good look at what my body needs. It is my commitment to care for myself, and to give the message to that little girl in me that I mean what I say when I write this blog. I am seeing her face and giving her my word.
My spiritual teacher John-Roger has said that “health is loving who we are”. Boy do I know now that a part of loving who I am is putting my actions in line with taking care of myself.
I can not do this alone. I ask for Spirit to help me out, and I’m reaching out to let myself be supported now.
Please feel free to share your own experiences with self-care, and I hope this openness helps you to soothe the parts of you that are looking to be something different. You are beautiful exactly as you are.
Lots of love,