Today’s forgiving journal is about new creations.
I sanded a bench today for my cousin and her family. Then, I polyurathaned the wood. And I watched it come alive in front of my eyes. My hands did this.
I had no idea that this fact – my hands helping to make wood more beautiful – would touch me inside as much as it did. My whole insides became warm and full of energy. I had emotions welling up that I can’t really identify. I am moving through judging and forgiving, I get that. And I thank … everybody!
It’s time for my forgiving journal:
1 – Self-forgiveness: I forgive myself for judging myself as not having the capacity to create anything beautiful. I forgive myself for judging my mom as ugly because of her mental illness. I forgive myself for judging myself as worthless for being born of a mom like mine.
2 – Letting go: I let go of all shame associated with my mom and being a creative woman into the Light. I let go of any concern about outing myself for having negative stuff with my family. And I let it go – free!
3 – Gratitude: I am grateful to my mom for carrying me in her uterus for 9 months and for nourishing my life. I am grateful for learning how my own creativity takes shape and form. It is beautiful.
I have a new affirmation: ‘I am a powerful co-creator of loving, nourishment and beauty.” 🙂 Can you keep this in your heart for me? Thank you so much.
I love you.
ps – Feel free to share about your creativity in forgiving @ my new Forgiving Forum facebook group! It’s a safe space to express forgiving in a loving community.