Happy #ForgivingFridays everyone! Yay! This is an opportunity for you to let go and forgive. You can do your post ANY DAY this week! Whatever inspires YOU to forgive and choose love – even if you’re struggling. e.g., try a poem, video, photo, or a story or inspiring quote, or how you did forgiveness today (that’s what I did).
Today’s Forgiving Fridays is The Way Out is Through.
Hi everyone!! I’m back after a blogging break. It is so good to be here, I’ve missed you and I carried you in my heart these past two months.
I woke up this morning with a phrase, “the way out is through”. During my break, it’s been a tough period of time for me, where two dear friends died, and I went to New York revisiting a lot of old memories.
New York is a place where I used to drink and do bulimia. Where I didn’t feel worth of expressing myself, or frankly of being me.
I was saying to someone yesterday how I want to learn from the past and not live in it. Well, here I am with the memories so present from my kid-hood. And I am willing to go through the upset and give myself love.
The thing is, I didn’t know myself as love then. I thought I was ugly, fat, stupid, and alone. I remember being a kid with a dorothy hamel haircut and space between my teeth and a pudgy (or so I thought) face. I was so shy, and people teased me. I remember being the daughter of a “crazy” mom. I felt so unworthy.
Well, here I am to give that little girl love, to tell her that I think she is AMAZING and her smile is the most gorgeous smile I’ve ever seen. To be the mom she always wanted.
I’m pausing a moment to breathe in the love I’m giving to myself. That is so important, because it helps to give me an experience in my body of what it is. (Right now, my body relaxed & I smiled.)
The forgiveness is so easy today. It’s simply: I forgive myself for judging myself as unworthy to love and be loved.
I let this go.
I am grateful for the courage I have to look at what scares me. The fear is a gift, because it’s showing me where next to love.
When I went back to NY this time, I was speaking at the U.N. Spiritual Caucus on forgiveness and how when we forgive, we make peace with ourselves inside. I stood tall – and I know that little girl helped me be authentically me.
I did a video today on all this too, and I played a rendition of Amazing Grace. There’s a line in the song that says, “Twas grace that taught my heart to fear, and grace my fear relieved….” I play the piano to help me forgive, it bypasses my mind and I surrender to love. (My mom played piano too – thank you mom.) After I did it, I cried. Here it is from my heart to yours:
I am SO SO grateful for all of you who contribute to Forgiving Fridays. I learn so much from you! Here are this week’s contributions:
Etta of Simply Etta D. shared 4 gorgeous posts while I was away. Thanks so much Etta, each one is a gem!:
Lacey of Big N’ Pinky Toes wrote a beautiful blog on her experience doing a forgiveness coaching session – with me! Aww, Lacey, I’m so glad it supported you. 🙂
I’d like to end with a Rumi quote that is so meaningful for me. Because here’s the thing, as we go through the pain, we are never alone – love is with us every step of the way.
I love you.
***This post is my contribution for The Daily Post’s All Time Favorites and Frank’s Challenge, Height. Frank, it is good to be back – I missed your photo challenge! At the UN, I stood tall in the love and gentle strength of who I am, in service to the peace intentions of the UN. Blessings!***
Here are the guidelines of #ForgivingFridays:
- Every day is Friday! Do a post today or anytime this week.
- Be creative – there’s LOTS of space for your expression! Write a poem, take a photo, post a quote, share your story … what opens your heart?
- Include #ForgivingFridays in your tags
- Create a pingback link to this post so I can find you.
- Have fun – you are awesome!!