Today’s forgiving blog is about not having to be perfect.
I experienced some pretty painful emotions this week. Probably the biggest thing is that I co-presented a class and felt like I “wasn’t on” or didn’t do the greatest job. Even as I am writing this, a part of me wants to disappear, because I…. Well, let’s slow that down.
A part of me wants to disappear because in the past, I’ve turned away from myself when I make a mistake. I abandon myself. This stops now.
It stops even to the point that I LOVE the part of me that abandons myself. It’s that deep of a change. I’m not trying to get rid of any of it – rather, my intention is to love all of it and to tune into the wisdom of my heart for what to do.
This starts with self-forgiveness:
1 – Self-forgiveness: I forgive myself for judging myself as needing to be perfect to be loved. I forgive myself for judging myself for not loving myself when I do something less than what I think I can do. I forgive myself for judging my mom for not being the role model that I wanted her to be.
2 – Letting Go: I let all this go into the Light with a BIG SMILE so that I may be set free. THANK YOU DEBBIE!
3 – Gratitude: I am grateful for the opportunity to love myself. I am grateful for letting go of an old pattern – I thought it was perfectionism and maybe it’s really separating myself from loving it all.
The wisdom of my heart never steers me wrong. I noticed a forgiveness about my mom – it just popped out. There’s a quote from J-R (my spiritual teacher) which says something like “You can talk to your mom and she’ll get it, and there’s lots of healing”. Mom, I accept and love you as you are/were.
Maybe I can improve as a facilitator. Well, I’m sure of that. And the biggest way for me to improve today is to awaken to my own loving presence. I choose “YES!”
I love you. Wow, that is beautiful – like a gorgeous star in the sky.
ps – this is my contribution for Dutch Goes the Photo’s Weekly Challenge, Abandoned. Frank, can you see the lone star in the sky? I realized it’s not abandoned – it’s just love.