Today’s forgiving journal: Saying goodbye

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Today’s forgiving journal is about saying goodbye.

Well, I decided to move to LA.  I’m clear about doing this.  I’m also feeling sad about saying goodbye in regards to NY.

I have a little frown on my face, like I feel around 5 years old.  That’s the time when my mom and dad split up and I moved from CA to NY!  I’m aware that this was not an easy time for me.

I’m also aware that it’s easy to distract myself from the path I’ve chosen.  (Like I’m looking at other possibilities … things I know in my heart aren’t on purpose for me.)  I have an intuition I’m doing this in part to avoid the memories that are coming up.

I felt like it was my fault.  I felt like moving to NY opened a big void.  I would have to leave my home.

Time for forgiveness:

1 – Self-forgiveness: I forgive myself for judging that my parents’ divorce was because of me. I forgive myself for judging myself for not wanting to step into a void. I forgive myself for any shame present with these memories inside of me.

2 – Letting go: I am not willing to hurt myself any more.  From this place, I just let go of my hurt, my shame and upset, my sense of grief and loss into this big ol’ bowl of peace!!!  I see doves bringing me peace, calm, and understanding.

3 – Gratitude: Nurturing is a big focus for me right now. I am so grateful for that – I feel held by me. I am also grateful for the many awesome choices I have in my life.  What a blessing!  And I am grateful for that 5 year old kid, who loves me and tells me what’s going on for her.  You go, girl.

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What I’m present to is the utmost commitment to doing the best I can to follow my heart, look for the good, and take care of myself.  I can serve anywhere that I live, and that starts right with the loving and the joy inside of me.

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I may feel sad, and I can handle it.  I hold my hand every step of the way.

I love you.

Love,

Debbie

ps – this post is my contribution for Dutch Goes the Photo’s challenge this week, candy.  Frank, my candy is love.  (Creative license?  OK yes 🙂 Hope that’s ok!)

42 thoughts on “Today’s forgiving journal: Saying goodbye”

  6. It’s good to know you’re moving to LA–it’s not too terribly far from where I live! I wish you the best in the next road in your journey. I’m sure it will lead to some wonderful things for you!

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  12. Brave Girl! So full of love and compassion for others. I see how this all comes back around for you. Your thoughtful patronage of my blog lifts me up. You deserve all the goodness life has to offer. We are all cheering for you!

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    1. Thank you! And I appreciate you reflecting that line to me … I already need a reminder to hold myself. Practice is a blessing, it makes me more aware of my strength, courage, and compassion / kindness.
      Many blessings,
      Debbie

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  16. Aw, Debbie, you are a brave soul. I admire your way to take anything and spin in it into such a positive light. Plus we will be in the same state- so that’s pretty exciting! I wish you a smooth transition in this stage, and I hope it is filled with nothing but love ❤

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  19. Hi Dear Debbie! You’ve made the decision– now go for it! Hoping, praying the move is smooth and at the other end your find the community and vocation that will make it all worth while. You have so much to offer… take care Blog-friend. hugs from here!

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