Today’s forgiving journal is about saying goodbye.
Well, I decided to move to LA. I’m clear about doing this. I’m also feeling sad about saying goodbye in regards to NY.
I have a little frown on my face, like I feel around 5 years old. That’s the time when my mom and dad split up and I moved from CA to NY! I’m aware that this was not an easy time for me.
I’m also aware that it’s easy to distract myself from the path I’ve chosen. (Like I’m looking at other possibilities … things I know in my heart aren’t on purpose for me.) I have an intuition I’m doing this in part to avoid the memories that are coming up.
I felt like it was my fault. I felt like moving to NY opened a big void. I would have to leave my home.
Time for forgiveness:
1 – Self-forgiveness: I forgive myself for judging that my parents’ divorce was because of me. I forgive myself for judging myself for not wanting to step into a void. I forgive myself for any shame present with these memories inside of me.
2 – Letting go: I am not willing to hurt myself any more. From this place, I just let go of my hurt, my shame and upset, my sense of grief and loss into this big ol’ bowl of peace!!! I see doves bringing me peace, calm, and understanding.
3 – Gratitude: Nurturing is a big focus for me right now. I am so grateful for that – I feel held by me. I am also grateful for the many awesome choices I have in my life. What a blessing! And I am grateful for that 5 year old kid, who loves me and tells me what’s going on for her. You go, girl.
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What I’m present to is the utmost commitment to doing the best I can to follow my heart, look for the good, and take care of myself. I can serve anywhere that I live, and that starts right with the loving and the joy inside of me.
I may feel sad, and I can handle it. I hold my hand every step of the way.
I love you.
Love,
Debbie
ps – this post is my contribution for Dutch Goes the Photo’s challenge this week, candy. Frank, my candy is love. (Creative license? OK yes 🙂 Hope that’s ok!)
You may be saying goodbye to NY, but soon you will be saying hello to LA. You will be good!
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Aww thank you Emily. This really helps me. So glad to know you and that you’re here. Blessings. ❤
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Glad you’re listening to your heart. It’s a major move but it seems you’re ready for it. Best of luck! Hopefully it’ll be before winter hits NY. 😉
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YES definitely! 🙂 I’m ready for it and thank you so much for the wishes. It really makes a difference. Blessings and love
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Yes, you may leave some friends behind, but you have a lot of friends to say welcome.
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So true and very important to remember. Thank you! 🙂 Big smiles.
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Love your post. ❤️ wishing you all the best with the move.
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Oh thank you so much!! Very glad you are here 🙂 Many blessings.
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Thank you. Sending you blessings also 😊
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Saying goodbye is never easy Debbie but new beginnings and possibilities await. You’ll be fine. Sending love and warmest wishes xo
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Thanks so much Miriam. Your words are like a hug for me 😊 Sending blessings your way. Love and hugs my friend xo
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And back to you Debbie. xo
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It’s good to know you’re moving to LA–it’s not too terribly far from where I live! I wish you the best in the next road in your journey. I’m sure it will lead to some wonderful things for you!
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Near, Robin! That’s so cool. I so appreciate your well wishes, they mean a lot to me. ☺ Sending love
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Debbie, you are doing the right thing by following your heart and making a change for a better life. I wish you the best with your move and hope for a smooth transition. Sending hugs💗💗💗
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Thank you!! I really appreciate this. You put a smile on my face. Hugs back to you, and many blessings. ☺
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You’ll be just fine! Plus LA is way more cozy than NY 😇
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Oh thank you so much! That completely touched my heart. Doing my best to take care of myself. 💓 Blessings.
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Stay on it, you’re good ❤ and you're very welcome :))
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You’ll be happy with your decision this winter, I’m sure!
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So true, Diane! I’m seeing the good already. 🙂 Thanks for that … helps to be positive and focus on the blessings. Hope you are doing wonderfully. Love, Debbie xo
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Debbie,
a lovely post about the sweetest thing of all: Love!!
Frank
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Thank you so much, Frank. I appreciate you. 🙂 Love your photo challenge… participating it is a highlight of my blogging experience.
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Brave Girl! So full of love and compassion for others. I see how this all comes back around for you. Your thoughtful patronage of my blog lifts me up. You deserve all the goodness life has to offer. We are all cheering for you!
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Oh RG, thank you! This made me cry. I appreciate you and our cheerleading blog family. It makes such a difference in my life. Many blessings to you, RG. 🙂
Loving,
Debbie
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Such a big step! Bittersweet I know, but any city is lucky to have you 🙂
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Oh, Lacey thank you! What a sweetheart you are. Many blessings to you and your family, Lacey 🙂 and big hugs.
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I loved how you say – I feel held by me –
Wish you all the ease and joy in your journey
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Thank you! And I appreciate you reflecting that line to me … I already need a reminder to hold myself. Practice is a blessing, it makes me more aware of my strength, courage, and compassion / kindness.
Many blessings,
Debbie
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I’m wishing you all the best and hope you find “home” here on the West Coast! Following your heart, that is what we are meant to do…
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Thank you so much. I really receive that into my heart. Big hugs and smiles too! 🙂 Blessings,Debbie
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Change can be scary, it’s good to know that others have our backs!
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Aw, Debbie, you are a brave soul. I admire your way to take anything and spin in it into such a positive light. Plus we will be in the same state- so that’s pretty exciting! I wish you a smooth transition in this stage, and I hope it is filled with nothing but love ❤
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Mack, thank you so much. Very exciting we will be in the same state. Cool! 💜 I so appreciate your caring, I really feel it from here. Many blessings, Mack!!
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PS – much love 😚
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Much love and peace in this journey Debbie. I’m proud of you for being so aware and plugged into your feelings. Great big hugs to you. ❤
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Thank you, Nikki! Your support means a lot. I’m grateful for you. 😍 Many blessings, and loving
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Best of luck Debbie! You’ll have to blog about the experience.
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Good idea, K E! ❤ So glad that you're here with me. Many blessings.
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Hi Dear Debbie! You’ve made the decision– now go for it! Hoping, praying the move is smooth and at the other end your find the community and vocation that will make it all worth while. You have so much to offer… take care Blog-friend. hugs from here!
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Rhonda, thank you. This is such perfect timing. I am so grateful for your presence and your comments – you truly touch my heart. Many blessings my friend. Have a wonderful weekend! 🙂
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