Today’s forgiving journal is being ok with grief.
I’m aware that sometimes I want to move too fast out of a feeling of loss.
It’s ok to relax, let it come out, and keep my focus on loving.
There are a number of losses I’m grieving, and that is ok. The key is to know in my heart that I am whole, held, and blessed through it all.
A fellow blogger Robin Baldwin shared her own story of forgiving in relationship. It’s a gorgeous poem.
After she wrote it, Robin emailed me and said, “The process of writing it made me realize that I need to work on forgiving my loved one for not fighting harder to overcome a myriad of illnesses that affected our relationship. I still have a way to go, but I’ve now taken the first step that I didn’t even know I had to take. So thank you!”
Robin, thank you so much for your courage. See Robin’s poem below.
I am on my way to the funeral of a dear friend’s mother. Just being there for one another (and for ourselves) can be the best forgiveness there is.
I love you.
It’s not the Alzheimer’s
Or the headaches
That I can’t forgive.
It’s the essence of you
That disappeared throughout
These last thirtysomething years
That weighs on me,
Making it difficult for me to
Understand how you left.
All this time I’ve blamed
The illnesses, the meds, the doctors.
For not making you well,
Preventing me from talking
To you like we used to.
Never knowing how you would
Be feeling, it wasn’t safe to
Have honest conversations.
I became guarded, distant even,
To protect myself.
I have mourned you
While standing in front of me.
Why couldn’t you fight harder to stay?
Time is fleeting now
But forgiveness is elusive
Knowing that your mind
Can’t grasp what’s in