Today’s forgiving blog is about releasing barriers to love.
This morning, I woke up after having had a very intense dream. I was somewhat shaken and felt alone. I don’t think I realized how vulnerable I felt until a good friend emailed me this Rumi quote:
“Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere. They’re in each other all along.
Don’t grieve. Anything you lose comes round in another form.
Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.” ~Rumi
I started crying. My heart was so open, and I was touched by the truth and the caring of this quote.
The rest of the day felt like a struggle …. I chewed a lot of gum, felt impatient and boxed in, put off eating, drank too much coffee, you name it. The amazing thing was, as I was doing these things, I had a level of awareness that (a) I was doing them, and (b) I was doing my very best to love myself through it.
I am getting much stronger at loving and caring for myself, and making conscious choices that serve to increase that loving and caring.
I had a Skype call with a dear colleague and friend on a forgiving center we’re looking at creating. During the conversation, we talked about what was going on for me, and she mentioned that vulnerability can be state that hurts, and it can also be a blessing.
I forgive myself for judging myself for this vulnerability I’m allowing myself to be in. God, that sounds so circuitous, and you know what? Sometimes forgiving comes out just the way it comes out.
What I am aware of right now is that I’d add one more line at the end of the Rumi quote. After “to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.”, I would say – and did say to myself today – “and love them all.”
That’s a nice forgiving tool – becoming aware, forgiving, and loving it all!
Please do feel free to share your stories of forgiving…. Or struggles where you don’t know how to forgive….
I am just loving you all. Thank you for being here.